•February 17, 2015 • 1 Comment
I’m just back from 5 days in New Zealand. It’s the first time I’ve visited, unless you count 2 hours in the airport as a stop over. I wasn’t prepared for the breathtaking beauty of the countryside. It is absolutely gorgeous.
I went over to shoot a wedding, which was held on the Friday. The wedding was wonderful, very picturesque and full of love and happiness. It was a pleasure to photograph.
Here’s a sneak peak of some of the pics I took. I have a LOT to go through, which I’m doing slowly. Editing is my least favourite part of the process!!
The house we stayed in, located in Raumati South, was marvellous, with a picturesque view. It came with a kitten, Pebbles, who of course decided I was her bestie for the time I was there #madcatlady
The view from the balcony, who wouldn’t want to wake up to this scenery every single morning??
I so need to go back to NZ to tour around the country. I would love to spend a few weeks exploring its beauty.
•February 7, 2015 • 2 Comments
My job has been draining the life blood out of me this week. I almost wept when someone told me it was a full moon, at least that explained why my clients were, well, difficult to say the least.
But Summer is back and I am happy with the warmth again. I was beginning to wonder if we’d ever get some decent weather or if we’d had our little burst of Summer and that was it.
I’ve spent today with a ridiculous headache, I even had a Nanna nap earlier to try to assist. It didn’t.
I’ve been slowly getting things together for my trip to New Zealand on Wednesday. Job one: find my passport. Successfully completed. Phew! I had to buy myself a spare SD card for my camera (I’m shooting a wedding) and I was quite shocked at the difference in prices. It pays to shop around. Some retailers were charging $20 more for the same product. I can’t see how they can even justify that.
I took my camera over to my sisters during the week to have a muck about with, taking pics of the kids. My niece will be 2 in a couple of weeks. Not sure how that has happened!!
Apologies for the lack of words, I can barely string a sentence together at the moment.
•January 24, 2015 • 4 Comments
Last night I attended Amanda Palmer’s book launch at the Thornbury Theatre. I purchased her book “The Art of Asking” when I was in Cambridge, and diligently carried it around with me on my trip. It was a great read, better than I had expected. Of course I adore her music too, so going to the launch was something I had definitely wanted to do.
I met with some friends there and we stood in the audience as Amanda performed & read some extracts from her book. Her husband, Neil Gaiman, also got up and read some passages, then they sang a song together. Neil is one of my most favourite authors, so having them in the same room together was fan girl heaven!
Afterwards we hung out in the foyer and I was the tea fairy for The Bedroom Philosopher. I make a very good tea fairy apparently.
At some point I had to go to the little girls room. As I wandered over I heard a familiar voice – it was Neil! My mind immediately flew into a panic. Do I wee, do I go and say hello, oh no!!! Logic took over, go wee, you’ll wet yourself with excitement otherwise (I hope not though). So I did the fastest wee in the history of Fen wees and headed back out. Much to my delight, Neil was still there and he ever so kindly had a chat with me and we took a selfie! I may have gone squeaky and ridiculous, but at least I wasn’t grinning like a total lunatic in the photo.
We all then headed to the queue so that we could get Amanda to sign our books. It took a while but we made it eventually. As I handed her my book she spotted my pin up tattoo and gushed at how much she loved it. I showed her my lyrics tattoo (which are lyrics from her song Berlin) and she got excited and showed Neil and was rubbing my arms. I almost passed out from happiness. They weren’t doing photos but she said that she would be around at Neil’s show and she’d look out for me and we could have a photo together.
Needless to say I went home and fell asleep with a ridiculous grin on my face. They say meeting your heroes can be risky, but Amanda and Neil lived up to my expectations.
•January 19, 2015 • 1 Comment
This year is a big birthday for me. I really don’t want to celebrate it, I have lots of misgivings about turning this age. It’s my issue, I’ll get over it (or I’ll have a wee nervous break down).
My best friend (who is Chilean) asked me if I would like to go to South America in September this year. Of course I would. However my job pays terribly and I’m fairly sure I would not be able to save up enough money by then.
Do people think it’s a rubbish idea to maybe ask people for donations for my birthday towards a trip?
I hate asking people for money for anything. But I also don’t want a bunch of presents that I really don’t require, so is this a good alternative? And how would one go about this?
Help me please folks. Opinions/thoughts/ramblings in the comments.
•January 11, 2015 • 4 Comments
Just because I can and because it’s been a while since I did the last one.
- I spend a lot of time in my own head, this is not necessarily a good thing. I am acutely self aware. I’m my own harshest critic.
- I’m a hopeless romantic at heart (don’t tell) and I often wish someone would turn up on my doorstep professing their love for me. It never happens.
- I need “Fen time”. If I don’t get this then I become neurotic
- I often wonder about the parallel worlds out there and how the other me’s are living.
- I had a liver tumour called Lester. He was as big as a large grapefruit. After he was removed via major surgery I was okay for a year then medical intervention stupidity saw me nearly die twice and have to have major surgery again. I spent close to 4 months in hospital and to this day I am not sure how I’m not a raving basket case after all that I had to endure.
- My Mother died when I was 27. I’m fairly sure parallel world Fen, who still has a mother, doesn’t live as much inside her head and is good at relationships.
- I am a fairly logical person, I will look at all points of view. Except when it comes to matters of my heart, then all logic and rationale go out the window. I make poor decisions and I let people hurt me.
- This may be because I don’t meet people I actually have chemistry with too often. I’m a little different, I’m not most people’s cup of tea. So when I find someone that I have that spark with I hold tight.
- I probably hold too tightly. I’m not good at relationships.
- I’m a control freak, this is another reason I’m not good at relationships.
- Two nights ago I got stoned with someone who I hold too tight. I saw some pictures of myself and for the first time ever I saw what other people see. It makes me cry that I can’t see myself in this light normally.
- I know I’m not ugly, but I never understand the attraction.
- My body was built for sex. I guess we all were, but the older I get the more attuned I am with what makes me tick. It’s powerful and can be overwhelming.
- I’m very easy going, it takes a lot to annoy me. But fuck with my sleep and I will set you on fire.
- When I’m emotionally fraught I can’t eat. I haven’t eaten for over 24 hours at this point.
- I want to run away and start a new life. But there’s too much here I would miss.
- Not to mention the cost of running away. I need a new job that pays more.
- I’m on a quest to find good cheese & onion chips in Australia. I found some in Germany, surely there’s good ones here
- I am driven by smell. When I choose creams or hair products the smell factor comes first.
- I’m a pretty good judge of character. Very good in fact.
- My intuition is usually spot on. I just choose to ignore it from time to time.
- Today I hate my freckles
- Today I hate myself. It will pass.
- There are people I wish I could talk to, that I wish I were friends with. But I’m too scared to reach out.
- People are intimidated by me and this hurts. I am a big softie and I do anything for those I care about.
- I know I give too much and I don’t look after myself enough.
- Without music I think I would die.
- I can be a drama queen.
- But I’m no princess, I’m not high maintenance at all.
- I’ve lost my gardening mojo.
- My car is called Idris because she is tardis blue and Idris is the doctors wife aka the soul of the tardis.
- The dealership where I purchased my car call her Idris too
- Mostly I think I’ll be alone forever and this hurts me more than anything in the world. I don’t think I deserve that.
- I never thought I would love my niece and nephew as much as I do. Now I can’t imagine my life without them.
- I can’t have kids. This doesn’t bother me, but I know I would have been an awesome Mum.
- I’ve applied to do my Masters this year but still haven’t found out if I’ve been accepted yet.
- I really do need to do a photography course so I can learn the technical side of it. I think this will make me a better photographer.
- My partner in crime is my ex who I’m now friends with. He’s thinking of coming back to live in Australia. I’m trying not to get my hopes up, but I miss him.
- I do think I’m an empath
- Sometimes I feel like there’s so much sadness in my life and I will explode.
- I’m not a negative person, I try to see the positives in everything.
- I’m bisexual, it’s not just a phase I’m going through, I’ve been this way for as long as I can remember. My first crushes were on girls. Boys didn’t interest me one bit until my late teens. Given I don’t like labels I don’t really call myself anything.
- I’m a recluse a lot of the time, and then sometimes I can’t get enough of other people.
- I don’t like ignorant or rude people. I really really dislike fake & arrogant people.
- I once got chewing gum so stuck in my hair I had to cut it out, it was a big chunk of hair, but not as bad as when I was 3 and my neighbour cut a triangle out of my fringe!
- I have a strong personality, I’m honest, I’m blunt and I can be loud. Some people don’t like, or are intimidated me because of this, but those who love me do so because of who I am. I will never change myself for another person.
- I don’t drink alcohol at all. I used to get stoned a lot, now it’s once in a blue moon.
- I go through phases where I’m adverse to food. Nothing appeals to me. I basically just eat enough to keep functioning, nothing tastes any good. I hate these phases because I love food and eating.
- I was going to do 100 of these, but I’m not that committed.
- I never feel like I’m smart. Everyone else seems to know more than me. I used to love socialising, now I’m just quiet.
The self plug bit:
My photography website (patience required for loading, for some reason it’s being a snail)
My Flickr (without an account you won’t see most of my restricted work)